Why am I this way?!?!? >:(?

You don't want to get committed. Or you don't feel you have the authority to get yourself in a good relationship. Some people feel like they need a superiors permission to go find a quality mate. You are probably scared that if you did find a good guy, that someone else that peer or imaginary jealous friend will pounce on you and punish you for getting out of line. Sounds weird huh. Well think about it.